The Nature of ME

The Nature of ME
Me Being at My Best, ME!

Wednesday, September 22, 2010

Be Thankful

Be thankful for what you have! I realize that every once in a while and I am so happy that I have what I have. Just a few minutes ago I was talking to a stranger, he told me how his father kicked him out of the house because he skipped work. He threw his clothes in the rain and locked him out, he was sitting in his car wondering if he should leave town or try to make it work like all the other times. After I talked to him for a while, he told me that he was heading to his sister's house far from there, he grabbed his wet clothes from the pouring rain and headed on a road trip hoping to find a warm bed at his sister's house, as I pray for him!

Tuesday, September 21, 2010


Music is so amazing, it can make you feel this way and that way. When I listen to this song it makes me think of my life, my love, and my future. I can't wait for the next time I hear this song, I'm obsessed and if you were to hear it, you would be too! It's like a movie with a song playing in the background. This song plays while I'm walking the streets reminiscing my past and imagining my future with the love. It plays while I'm kissing him, while I cry, while I hug my loved ones goodbye. This song can play at any time of my life and it would fit perfectly. It makes me smile so happily and thank God for being alive and so fortunate to be where I am today. The man speaks of love and his voice speaks in the language that my people speak. He makes me want to sing along! The man that I've met once before, but know nothing about, makes me want to live a long, wonderful, and fulfilling life. This song makes me want to laugh and smile, it makes me want to live with so much to offer others. It makes me want to take pride in my culture, my language, and my abilities. It's so motivating, you ask in what way, in every way.

Monday, September 20, 2010

The Love of My Life

The love of my life's name is Kou. He is so gentle, I don't know what he did for me to fall in love with him, but as soon as I fell for him, I was hooked. I remember when we met, the chemistry was so strong and the passion. He made me feel like a woman, not like any other man has ever made me feel. He made me need him and made me so weak. I always felt so fragile and sensitive around him, needing his help all the time. He was the only one that I was attracted to in the way that I have never felt before, something that I yearned and couldn't resist. He makes me smile and laugh everyday. The happiness that he brings has made me a happier person! I don't think I could ever give him up, if he were to leave my life, I would be devastated, like a flower without the sun. I would feel left in the dark, lonely, and cold. With everyday that passes, I feel that I need him more and more. I wanted to be an independent woman who doesn't need anyone's help, but with him I find myself falling to a trap that needs him for everything. I want to cook with him, clean with him, and cross the street with him. I want to share the rest of my life with the love of my life. The only thing that is holding me back are the years that I have yet to accomplish my degree. With time our relationship will grow stronger and more loving. There are so many days that I fall in love with him all over again, he makes me want to love him! Just the other night he thanked me for asking him out! It gave me happy tears that made me wish I was married to him! The man that I fell so deeply in love with lives hours away and will live even further away in the Spring when the flowers bloom. Even with the sun being so far away the flower will still survive, as I will when I will be in New Zealand. The love of my life is Kou and it will always be him for the rest of my life.

To my loving boyfriend, I will miss you so much when I am gone, there are no words to express the love and happiness I feel to have you in my life. I thank God that he brought you into my life, that he thinks I deserve such a great man! I thank you for being my best friend, for loving me and my family! You are the soul person I want to tell my secrets to, the one I want to run to when I'm happy or sad, the person that I want to have my children with. He's seen my bad and my good and accepts me! The one man that has not given up on me, no matter how crazy and awful I am. Please don't ever give up on me and stay by my side always! You are the man that I love, the love of my life, always and forever.

Kou's artwork! The man I want to grow old with and I!

Tuesday, September 14, 2010

Famous Me

So I was in the newspaper this past Sunday. Why? Well I was helping out my mom at the Farmer's Market and they wanted to do an inside story for the newspaper, the manager who runs the market gave a couple of names as to who would be helpful and have been at the market for several years. It was my mom and my aunt, it was nice seeing them featured in the newspaper, I'm so happy! I'm sure they were so proud of themselves too! I was in there just a little bit, the reporter quoted me here and there, nothing too special, but they also mentioned my school. Because my school was mentioned, anything that has my school name comes onto our campus, and now just about all the staff and faculty know that I was in the Leader Telegram. So a couple people stopped me here and there to ask about it and was saying I was famous, I'm not, it didn't even feature me in the story, but it is nice to get a little press here and there. :D I'm all smiles!

Thursday, September 9, 2010


There has been several people in my life that I owe an apology to. Today I have finally gotten the nerve to apologize to two of them. I still feel that I didn't do much to be at fault, but I feel that in order for us to be friends ever again, someone must apologize for those times missed. I will be that person and do that because I would rather have you as a friend than not have you. I hope you accept and see the bigger picture.