How Cruel Can A Person Be?

This past weekend was the Hmong New Year for the city that I was in. I was so excited in going and seeing all my friends and family. Dressing up in Hmong clothes and looking and feeling great.

Only to find out later that someone broke into my brother's place and stole their safes. Stole all their games and playstation and xbox.

Everything basically was gone.

They just had a baby, my siser-in-law is on maternity leave.

They have one paycheck left to live on.

I thought to myself, how can someone be so cruel? What in your right mind makes you do this? What do you feel in doing this, happiness? Guilt? Are you proud of yourself? What are you going to do with their information, their money, their important things?

I prayed to God so many times. I prayed to him asking what I did wrong for my family to deserve this, I prayed to him to catch the bad people, to punish them for their doings. I prayed to give my brother them strength, they have to be strong for the baby.

How can you just live on? Can't you just pause the world for this? I am so stressed I don't want to do homework, I don't want to think about assignments, graduation, food, internships.

I feel like I want to email my professors to let them know, but what good is that going to do? They didn't rob me, they robbed my brother. Although I am very hurt and stressed, what can I do?

Most likely they will be moving in with my mom for the time being until they can move on their own again. Until they feel safe elsewhere.

God, please help them. I know that I don't deserve your good blessings, but what did they do wrong to deserve this? Please help them catch the bad people, make them pay for what they did to my family. The tears that they shed today will be in my memories for the rest of my life. My brother's sobs that were so painful it struck my heart and made my tears run like water. My sister-in-laws cries that were so shockingly scary and worrisome that it makes you want to hurt those people that hurt them. Please God, don't make us bad people from hating the bad people. Don't make the bad out of us come out because of those bad people. Please keep us strong, help us so we can carry on, make it right again! Amen.

Crazy Business

Just today, or yesterday October the 3rd, 2011 I got an e-mail at around 4pm. I wasn't sure if it was a fake scam email or not because I've been getting them a lot lately. I first saw it through my phone first and then went onto my laptop to check it out.

There it was, from an important Senior Project Manager stating that we met at the Career Fair and that a position for a project manager has opened up. She would like me to start as a part-time and it may lead to a full time job.

I'm thinking, WT (WHAT THE)?????????????? :D

From wanting an internship to becoming a part-time project manager???

and possibly being a full time project manager?

Am I ready for this?

I prayed to God desperately a few weeks ago, and now he has answered my prayers.

Not only is he giving me this opportunity, but even the other job that I applied for seems like it's going to be promising.

I'm so clueless right now, I want both, yet I already have a job and I want that too.

I can't be a full time student and work 3 jobs, I'll go mad.

I wish I could do that, but it's just impossible.

"I'll simply deny you the crown and live forever!"

LOL that's from Ever After, Henry (the Prince's dad stated that to Henry).

Anyways, I'll have to take the project manager if nothing else opens, I did apply for two already in my hometown and haven't heard from them, so I'll have to take this, but the thing is, it's not an internship, it's a part-time. I'll definitely have to talk to the senior project manager about that.

As for the other jobs, I'll have to let it go to someone else who needs it more than I do.

THANK YOU GOD!

My Interview Today

I had an interview today and for some reason like always, I am so nervous, but when I get up there I do absolutely fine. I sometimes don't answer the question right, but then I give them something good so they leave it alone, lol.

I did so well. I guess I was intimidated because there were two men throwing questions at me. But I tackled it like a pro.

I can tell one of the guys really wants me for this position and the other has no expression, he didn't really care much, it seemed or didn't believe me.

But all in all it was good, sometimes I want to kick myself for answering so stupidly, but it was professional and I did what I could do.

Thank you for your guidance, mom, dad, and God!

Another One Of My Realizations

I have come to realize another thought, that blogs/writings/poems/songs are not written/spoken/said to be grammatically correct, it is written/spoken/said to get the point out there, to get it across, to send the message.

So what if I can't spell, can you read it? Can you make sense of what I'm trying to say and my thoughts that are being poured before you?

Don't judge me on my spelling if I can't spell, or if my grammar is totally off but you like my ideas, I can work on my grammar, but great ideas don't come easily.

So the next time you read something, if the idea is there and the grammar isn't, don't comment on the grammar, just be glad there are these type of people who have fast enough utensils/fingers to write all of these thoughts down to be able to be where we are today!

You're welcome for realizing this so you don't make another mistake!!! :D

Finding Time

For some reason I have always felt that I never have time for anything, yet I find myself looking for things to buy online, or sitting doing nothing, or watching tv/drama/youtube. Finding time is so difficult to do, I think what I really need to do is just write down all the things I need to do and then when I find myself sitting around and doing nothing, I can just do some of that stuff and then check it off my list!!! I'm actually pretty productive when I have a list to accomplish, I feel so accomplished when I check them off!!!!!!!


Finding time is something that everyone deals with, but for me I think I especially have a hard time because I feel so lazy and I would just rather not. Living a certain routine can lead you to doing that. Think, you don't bring money and fame with you when you die, you just bring your thoughts and memories, what kind of memories should I make happen so when I die, I can be happy?

I want to live it up, what does that mean? Live life to its fullest, what does that mean?

I just want to live, I want to do what I want, buy what I want, and live like I want to. Eat the things I want to eat, and refuse to the things I don't want to do. If someone is bullying me, I better speak back, I'm not going to let it go, life is too short to live like that. Speak up for yourself, if you don't, who will? You don't even want to help yourself, who does?


Sounding depressing?


This isn't to make anyone sad, depressed, or start eating ice cream, this is to share with the world on thoughts about life.

Make memories and decisions that you will have for the rest of your life, not things you'll regret not doing or doing.

You got this?