What is the Definition of Success?

Sometimes you feel like a complete failure. Look at what you do from a day to day basis, you look at what you eat, what you lack, what you wish you could do and think to yourself why am I so lazy, mean, dumb, fat, or a failure?

When you feel this way, you think, what do others see me as? Successful? but why? I'm not rich, I don't have a business or have a career.

What is the definition of success? I don't feel it, why do people think I'm successful? (this is in terms for myself to think of and for everyone reading)

I just think to myself, why do I need to think of what other's definition of success is for me to feel successful? Why can't I come up with my own definition and feel that sense of pride in succeeding.

I may say successful is something dumb like waking up every morning, doing some walking, and getting out of the house, but that defeats my whole purpose of this blog.

Why do we define our ways into other people's definition? That ticks me off! I can be happy while I'm fat, I can be healthy while being overweight. I can be successful in my own eyes even if not in yours.

One other topic I wanted to speak of, the fact that we judge ourselves based on others. Oh I am successful because I did this and all my friends never did. WHY?? Why do we do this to ourselves? We don't like it when our friends do it to us, why should we do it to them? OF COURSE I'm guilty of this too, but realizing it and changing the fact is something else.

Change your definitions and realize what you want what your success story is. Define it and keep it consistent, whether others know your definition or not, it doesn't matter because you can feel it and you know!

I once heard something, I forget what it's for, but it goes something like, a good deed is only a good deed if it goes unnoticed or without you bragging about it. I don't know what, but I totally agree! But it's hard not to speak of your greatness when there is so much badness that you see in yourself all other days.

Stick to it, keep your chin high, don't look down on others and don't look down on yourself. You are what you think you are, not what you eat!

One Thing I Want To Do In My Future

I will graduate in May of this year (2012) and I have no idea what to do with myself. I live in a fairly small city that doesn't have that many opportunities. I don't feel stuck to my mom but I feel like I should stick around. With that being the situation, I am left with trying to find a job that would fit my profession and it's hard enough just trying to find one to intern at. I have no idea what I will be doing after graduation and I hope that my parent's aren't disappointed in me as I may be feeling, myself.

I don't know what my future will bring, but I promise myself I will at least do something like this in my future:

This morning I woke up and saw the sunshine. Notice the word morning in that sentence? I would like to wake up in the morning before noon and I would like to see the sunshine. All of what was just said is something I know now, I want to do in the future.

I also had a cup of coffee next to my computer. This too is something I want to do, have a hot drink relaxing next to my computer updating myself on the social networks online. It's soothing to me to have something next to me as my breakfast before anyone wakes up. Having peace and quiet listening to my own thoughts and what I want to do today instead of waking up to someone else's plans for me.

I find that these things if not anything else has to be done in my future, there may not be coffee involved but at least something hot like tea. If I find myself without a job and without any motivation, at least I know that this will be a routine that I would look forward to and will keep consistent. At least I am in control of this in my life if nothing else!

Internet Vacation

I feel like when I leave the internet for an internet vacation, I am so worried. Worried about missing important e-mails, my viewers on youtube being upset that I haven't posted a video in a while, or just missing out on things.

It's so strange. When I get back into my mode of updating things such as e-mails, blogs, youtube, and facebook I feel so stressed and rushed.

I guess it goes for a lot of things when you leave for a vacation and come back to reality.

It's just so time consuming and stressful but we still do it. We still have to answer back to e-mails and update our status on facebook and twitter.

It's silly, but so very true!

Have you ever felt like this? What would you suggest in bettering this whole situation?

Self-Confidence Makeover

I have been inspired to give to those who don't have anything. I don't have much and can't do much to help them in the sense of money but I can help by giving them a boost of confidence, a boost of energy and compliments to make their day better.

I want to do something along the lines of giving other women who don't feel confident to feel confident in their skin. Somehow I want to make them feel as beautiful as they are on the inside, on the outside.

Now I am not the best at doing makeup, but I would love to go around and help those who feel that they need that extra boost of confidence. I will start as soon as I can.

I have just thought of a great idea!

I will start putting on makeup on those who around me and then go from there. For every woman that I put makeup on to build their confidence, I will take their picture and post it (with their consent). I will most likely make another blog so that it doesn't conflict with this blog and show the world how confident woman can be. I can go from one woman to the next in building their confidence by simple things like blush, lipstick, and mascara.

This will be a great movement! One day maybe I can travel on my own expense to help woman around the world to build their confidence in being who they are! In walking in their own shoes and walking with their head held high!

I cannot give them money, but I can help give them self-confidence, which is more valuable! When one looks good, they feel good, and when you feel good, you do much better in just about everything!

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Accidental

What if being with someone for so many years you realize that you were with the wrong person all along?

What if you find out certain things about this person and it makes you wish you were never with them from the beginning? or that you never found out about it. but then again, if you don't, it's bound to happen sooner or later.

What if the person from the beginning before this other person was the one that you were supposed to be with, but then there was a miscommunication?

Do you think they'll come back? Or should you go track them down? Has it been too long? Will they even remember you?


WHAT AM I SAYING????