The Nature of ME

The Nature of ME
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Monday, September 10, 2012


 Sitting on the toilet with tears in my eyes. Making sure I get my thoughts down before I'm too lazy to do so. Why is it that it's always too good to be true?  Why do we have to be such horrible people?

I'm so tired. Tired of life and it's complications. I remember thinking about suicide when I was a kid. I sure was dramatic. I think I've grown from that.  But today while I drove home from work I thought about it again.  I'm not going to do it, but I just haven't thought about it in a while.

Now you're wondering what in the world happened that is making me feel this way. The answer is, everything.

As pathetic as I may sound, these are my thoughts. Suicide is very scary. I feel the pain of all the people whom has thought about suicide the only thing is I will never do it.

As horrible as I think life may be, I have to keep living for all the reasons that I don't want to be living for.

Thursday, September 6, 2012

The Unspoken Words

There are so many words that I have to say but I choose not to say them. It may be because I'm too weak to say them or that I am too kind to speak the truth or that I don't want to hear myself say these things because I wish they weren't true. Life is full of choices. Do you do things for yourself or for others? Do you answer truthfully or not?  Do we as humans make mistakes and hope to be forgiven on purpose?

There are too many unspoken words. Secrets, guilt, and pain. These unspoken words will never stop. It's human to keep things bottled up inside. Sadly...