The Nature of ME

The Nature of ME
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Wednesday, December 29, 2010

Law Office Internship

I sent out an email to my family and my brother-in-law who is a lawyer asked me if I wanted the internship position at his law office. I was very excited and shocked, but then it doesn't fit my description. I mean sure there's A LOT of writing that needs to be done, but I would love something that is more focused on the things that I want to do.

Not only is this going to be unpaid and 20-40 hours a week, it's also something that I have absolutely no idea about. The internship position seems so difficult, he listed all the things that I would need to be doing, and it sounds like a person that is knowledgeable or for an intern whose position is to be in this field. I have no idea, of course it's great to learn but he'll have to really train me on everything, the terminology, the laws, and how things work around the courts and such. SO crazy!! Although I'm super excited, I don't know if I want it.

I'm going to wait on answering yes or no until it's way close and I'll let him know if it's a yes or no. If I can't get anything else then I will have to take it in order to graduate.. I'm so sad... New Zealand isn't helping either.....

Tuesday, December 7, 2010


I don't know about you, but I am OBSESSED with e-mails. All the time I'll be checking my e-mail, practically every minute, sometimes even seconds. It's ridiculous, but I love e-mails and I love writing e-mails. Seriously, it's one of the greatest inventions, like post its. OMG, I love post its too!! I'm so obsessed with these little things, if I never knew about them and just found out about them, I would be the happiest lady in the world because they are so helpful.

I don't know, but I don't know why people take forever to reply to e-mails. I hate that. I reply right after I get them, why? Because I love e-mails, and I don't like people waiting on me, just like I don't like waiting on people. Do onto others as you want them to do to you, lmao I don't think I said/typed that right. You get the whole dealio.

Monday, December 6, 2010


I have been searching for an intern for a long while now and nothing has come up of my interest, or some company that will take me in. I leave to New Zealand in a month and I am so worried about my intern. What shall I do? I want to ask my workplace to see if they can just offer an intern for me for the summer when I get back, since I was a LTE for a while this past summer. I hope so, I'm just afraid of how to go about it. They would have to do a lot of stuff just to offer me an intern, so I'm not sure if they are willing, but they are such nice and amazing people!! I love working with them and learning things from them. They are really informative and knowledgeable!!! I hope I find an intern soon, really soon!!! Not sure what I will do if I can't, that means I can't graduate... so sad.. AMERICA give me an internship that I can accept please!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Wednesday, November 10, 2010


I am looking for an internship for public relations! If I get one I would be SOOO happy. It will be super difficult since I'll be in New Zealand for four months. I hope someone gives me one! Even if it's not for PR, at least something to do with writing and document design. My life would be at ease, please spread the word!

Thursday, October 28, 2010


Yesterday I made one of the biggest decisions of my life. I confessed what my sister had said to me to the BF, he agreed and was very understanding. He said that if we were to take a break or breakup, why wait? I figured I would give him time to think it over before any harsh decisions were made. He said we might-as-well do it now, since it's going to happen. I figured, I don't want to argue and wanted to leave in good terms. I feel empty today.

I don't want to laugh, sing, dance in the rain like I did when I was with him. No he's not close to me, four to five hours away, but I felt like he was here because we were together, now that we're not, I feel that he's even further away. Like he's in a different world and there's no way I can get him back, do I want to get him back? Of course, but how can I when I was the one who suggested it? When there needs to be changes made to the both of us, I never got to tell him that I am the one who doesn't deserve him. Yet I was laying in bed telling him all the things that he needs to change, I am the one who needs the most changing.

I felt like I was Mulan today, or however you spell her name, the Chinese girl who paints her face to please others. I feel that way today, I was painting my face with makeup and felt a lie. Like I was putting a show that I feel good today, but I don't and no I am not ok. I feel like her today, Mulan. I have to go fight the world without him and start anew. I have to save myself from everything out there without him. Am I vulnerable? Yes, to him, I relied on him heavily and here we are, not together because of my selfishness.

If there is ever a time where we meet again, after changes have already been made, I would love to love him again and show him the great changes I have made in my life. That I can be patient, not care so much about what others think, and that I'm not a mean, selfish, bitch.

But for now, we have to wait until time passes and ourselves change for the better, so until we meet again, we should evolve to be greater than we are now. Until then my love, until we can change, I can't wait!

Monday, October 18, 2010


Sorry, I've been abandoning you lately, there's just so much to do and so stressful too! Sorry, but I have a lot on mind. I have completed just about everything for New Zealand, have 54 subscribers now, doing hw like I should be and the BF is stressing me out, but it's all good, lol! Keep in touch!

Tuesday, October 5, 2010


I hate when people complain, I hate hearing it and it's annoying. I complain all the time though, even though I complain and others complain, you can't do much about it but listen and agree or disagree. Complaining helps you cope with something and it helps you release stress. I do it, you do it, so why do people COMPLAIN about COMPLAINING? lol and I am complaining about people who complain about others complaining.. if that makes any sense, it does to me.. lol

Wednesday, September 22, 2010

Be Thankful

Be thankful for what you have! I realize that every once in a while and I am so happy that I have what I have. Just a few minutes ago I was talking to a stranger, he told me how his father kicked him out of the house because he skipped work. He threw his clothes in the rain and locked him out, he was sitting in his car wondering if he should leave town or try to make it work like all the other times. After I talked to him for a while, he told me that he was heading to his sister's house far from there, he grabbed his wet clothes from the pouring rain and headed on a road trip hoping to find a warm bed at his sister's house, as I pray for him!

Tuesday, September 21, 2010


Music is so amazing, it can make you feel this way and that way. When I listen to this song it makes me think of my life, my love, and my future. I can't wait for the next time I hear this song, I'm obsessed and if you were to hear it, you would be too! It's like a movie with a song playing in the background. This song plays while I'm walking the streets reminiscing my past and imagining my future with the love. It plays while I'm kissing him, while I cry, while I hug my loved ones goodbye. This song can play at any time of my life and it would fit perfectly. It makes me smile so happily and thank God for being alive and so fortunate to be where I am today. The man speaks of love and his voice speaks in the language that my people speak. He makes me want to sing along! The man that I've met once before, but know nothing about, makes me want to live a long, wonderful, and fulfilling life. This song makes me want to laugh and smile, it makes me want to live with so much to offer others. It makes me want to take pride in my culture, my language, and my abilities. It's so motivating, you ask in what way, in every way.

Monday, September 20, 2010

The Love of My Life

The love of my life's name is Kou. He is so gentle, I don't know what he did for me to fall in love with him, but as soon as I fell for him, I was hooked. I remember when we met, the chemistry was so strong and the passion. He made me feel like a woman, not like any other man has ever made me feel. He made me need him and made me so weak. I always felt so fragile and sensitive around him, needing his help all the time. He was the only one that I was attracted to in the way that I have never felt before, something that I yearned and couldn't resist. He makes me smile and laugh everyday. The happiness that he brings has made me a happier person! I don't think I could ever give him up, if he were to leave my life, I would be devastated, like a flower without the sun. I would feel left in the dark, lonely, and cold. With everyday that passes, I feel that I need him more and more. I wanted to be an independent woman who doesn't need anyone's help, but with him I find myself falling to a trap that needs him for everything. I want to cook with him, clean with him, and cross the street with him. I want to share the rest of my life with the love of my life. The only thing that is holding me back are the years that I have yet to accomplish my degree. With time our relationship will grow stronger and more loving. There are so many days that I fall in love with him all over again, he makes me want to love him! Just the other night he thanked me for asking him out! It gave me happy tears that made me wish I was married to him! The man that I fell so deeply in love with lives hours away and will live even further away in the Spring when the flowers bloom. Even with the sun being so far away the flower will still survive, as I will when I will be in New Zealand. The love of my life is Kou and it will always be him for the rest of my life.

To my loving boyfriend, I will miss you so much when I am gone, there are no words to express the love and happiness I feel to have you in my life. I thank God that he brought you into my life, that he thinks I deserve such a great man! I thank you for being my best friend, for loving me and my family! You are the soul person I want to tell my secrets to, the one I want to run to when I'm happy or sad, the person that I want to have my children with. He's seen my bad and my good and accepts me! The one man that has not given up on me, no matter how crazy and awful I am. Please don't ever give up on me and stay by my side always! You are the man that I love, the love of my life, always and forever.

Kou's artwork! The man I want to grow old with and I!

Tuesday, September 14, 2010

Famous Me

So I was in the newspaper this past Sunday. Why? Well I was helping out my mom at the Farmer's Market and they wanted to do an inside story for the newspaper, the manager who runs the market gave a couple of names as to who would be helpful and have been at the market for several years. It was my mom and my aunt, it was nice seeing them featured in the newspaper, I'm so happy! I'm sure they were so proud of themselves too! I was in there just a little bit, the reporter quoted me here and there, nothing too special, but they also mentioned my school. Because my school was mentioned, anything that has my school name comes onto our campus, and now just about all the staff and faculty know that I was in the Leader Telegram. So a couple people stopped me here and there to ask about it and was saying I was famous, I'm not, it didn't even feature me in the story, but it is nice to get a little press here and there. :D I'm all smiles!

Thursday, September 9, 2010


There has been several people in my life that I owe an apology to. Today I have finally gotten the nerve to apologize to two of them. I still feel that I didn't do much to be at fault, but I feel that in order for us to be friends ever again, someone must apologize for those times missed. I will be that person and do that because I would rather have you as a friend than not have you. I hope you accept and see the bigger picture.

Wednesday, August 25, 2010

New Zealand

I can't wait to go there in the Spring!!! I just have to get all the paper work done so I can even go, lol!! I will be talking loans to go, but it'll be so worth it, I know for sure I will be blogging a lot there, since I will be alone and this will help make me feel at ease! I hope that some day the bf comes to read this. I hope that New Zealand is as wonderful as I think it will be. I hope I learn a lot from there and come back a full grown, lovable, woman.

Thursday, August 12, 2010

Another Update

So I've been posting a lot of videos onto YouTube, if you're interested check it OUT!!!

Friday, August 6, 2010

Quick Update

Sorry, been out of it and been really busy, plus no internet, so I haven't been posting much, not that anyone cares or is reading.. lol, but thought I would do an update anyways.. love ya!

Monday, July 19, 2010

The Weekend

It has gotten better, not everything has been figured out but for the most part the BF is willing to adjust which is a good thing, that's always a good thing, so I'm super excited and can't wait for those things to be adjusted... There are so many things to be thankful for, so I went shopping and bought the BF a couple shirts from my favorite store, Old Navy (ON)!!! He asked me what I got him and I told him they're really comfy shirts, so he's excited because he likes the soft fabric. From ON I also got some myself a cardigan that's brown because I need more colors in my wardrobe, and then I got clothes for my niece and nephew. I also got a bunch of jewelry from Wet Seal!!! So I have a haul on my jewelry filmed, it will be on YouTube once I edit it, so if you're interested you can go to my channel and check that out!!

Thursday, July 15, 2010

"Don't Settle"

"Don't Settle" says the ladies at the office.

Don't settle for less, and I shouldn't. I'm worth a lot more, so is everyone, so I'm not going to settle for anything less because every human being deserves more, this is my life and I am NOT going to settle, because in the future settling is not enough.


I find that through watching movies I feel so emotional. The feelings that movies and TV shows would make me feel, make me want to love and have fun. Yet I'm too lazy to call people to hang out and catch up. All my life I have been imagining and fantasizing about love and relationships and romance. Yet I tell myself that I don't care about romance, and I'm not much for it, but watching movies I find that I am a romanticism. I do want flowers and I do want him to light candles for me. I kept telling people that I don't care about flowers, but seeing others get it from their loved one, I feel a bit jealous. I want to know that he's thinking about me and buys me flowers.

Once the BF picked flowers for me, it was sweet, so sweet..

My sister and her husband go on dates, and their married. Now that is sweet, who plans it? Her husband does, that's even more romantic. I want to feel the butterflies fly in my tummy, I want to be nervous about what will happen and spill the juicy details to girls who will be jealous. I want to feel so in love again. Now I feel loved, but not in love, there is a difference. A big difference. Being in love is fun and exciting, feeling the love is knowing that the other person cares, but there's not much excitement, there's just certainty.

I would be so happy if the BF would do something out of the ordinary and plan a get-a-way weekend. I would be so excited and delighted. Will it happen? Never, he's not like that, nor would he ever think of something like this. He's an awesome man, don't get me wrong, but he's those men who doesn't know what to get a girl for her birthday or doesn't plan ahead. He buys things for you if you say you want it, but doesn't buy you anything if you don't say anything. I guess that's a good thing, I don't need any more pampering when I pamper myself too much.......

Wednesday, July 14, 2010


I'm so disappointed at the BF. Men in general are disappointing, they say things and then don't go through with it.. It makes me so sad and depressed and disappointed.. WHY? What the heck am I talking about, right? Well the world is still going round, but just slower. There are things that a man says to a woman to make her feel secure and to make her have hope, and then he crashes that hope and steps on it like a cigarette burning.. It's depressing. Maybe I am like the cigarette that needs to be stepped on so it dies down, not that I need to die or anything, just calm down or something along those lines. After I said what I said, I felt kind of guilty, but how can I just go back on what I said? Not because I have pride, because it's always this way, if I don't give up, we'll be upset forever. This time I'm going through with it, I want a response from him. No matter what it is, I want to hear what he has to say, most times he just listens and doesn't say anything, and then later I feel bad and I say sorry or something.. I tend to be harsh and I'm trying not to be that way, I'm trying to be more patient because I'm never patient. But still, last night I couldn't sleep at all because I wanted to talk to him, so I just watched youtube on my blackberry. After about an hour of being bored and nothing good, I fell asleep, even though I went to bed early, I didn't fall asleep early. I'm sure he had a sleepless night too. Not really sure what will happen today/night but we will see, not really looking forward to it....

Monday, July 12, 2010


Marriage is such a serious subject. I was thinking about it to myself about when I want to get married and start my life with my significant other. I wanted to start after I graduate from college and starting my career. I want to have a kid by the time I'm 25, and that's only 4 years from now. Silly right? But I'm so serious about this, I really am. I don't know, but I was thinking and thinking about this seriously and it made me excited and sad at the same time. Sad because I would be more limited to what I do and all that stuff. Sad because I wont be near my family, I'll live 4-5 hours away from my parents. Excited because I really can't wait to spend the rest of my life with the BF! To me, it's so exciting, he is the most adorable person ever, he's so happy all the time (because he laughs at everything), and he's so patient with me!!

I told him what I thought, that I do want to go to graduate school but I want to marry first. Right after I get my Bachelor's, I would like to marry and then when I'm ready, I can go to graduate school after marriage, whenever that is, whether we start a family or not, I still will go to graduate school. I'm worth too much to not go, I need to do it for myself and for my parents. You are in a world of opportunities, why not take them?

His response was beautiful, he was so happy, he is 25 now so he already wants to marry but understands that I have a lot going for me. He sounded so excited and pleased. We talked a lot about it and about our future together. It led to so many other things that I was worried about, such as credit, cell phones, and boundaries.

With everything that was discussed, it made me satisfied that no matter what the situation is, we will deal with it together and in a good manner. He is willing to help me in any way he can and he is willing to adapt and change his ways to better our future. THAT is what I need in him and that is all that I want from a man!!!

Thursday, July 8, 2010

Bads of Online Shopping

I bought shoes online, and now that I have them, more than half of them don't fit. They all fit in size wise, but because I have such wide feet, they don't fit. The bands that wrap around are too short and I can't stick my feet in all the way.

So, I can't return them because they're on clearance, so the only thing to do is sell them, how??? I have no idea, maybe ebay?? Maybe my blog, I don't know, I don't want to tell the BF about it, lol.. He'll be like, "Come on, you know better than that" and I'll be like, "I know, but they were on clearance!" I don't know, I'll most likely end up selling them on ebay, that's the only place I can get my money's worth for them...

Unless someone is reading this and interested. I might post pictures, not really sure yet. If you wear a size 8 and are interested, please let me know! They are heels, with a lot of straps, all from

Wednesday, July 7, 2010

Without You

The days are long and the nights feel cold without you! I miss you so much. I can't wait until the day we are one!

Tuesday, July 6, 2010

The Weekend with the BF

I had the best weekend with him ever!!! I videotaped a lot of stuff, so if I have time, I'll post them up. It's just so much work, but it'll be worth it if I do. I had so much FUN!!!! The love/BF was so great and so sweet, just everything that he said and did make me love him so much more.. I know, while you're reading this you want to know the past/present/future. OK OK OK!! Past, we've been together for almost three years, present, we are going strong and happy!!! Future, we would like to get married (soon for him) me after I graduate in two years! So, that'll be a while yet.. I can't wait to start a family with this man, he loves children so I'm super excited to begin our journey together.

So we got into town on Friday night, it only took us 2 1/2 hours to get to our destination, which should have taken us longer than that. The BF came later and he looked so good. Just wearing jeans and a green T from Old Navy that I bought him. He just looked so natural and yummy, lol! I couldn't wait to spend time with him.. So we hung out for a while and then we went to bed for the early wake up the next day. We woke up early and got ready for the tournament, they lost their first game but it was fine. He was super disappointed and so was I, but I had to be happy for him, otherwise everything will be ruined.. lol So we bought food from some of the vendors and we ate such yummy food, we strolled the other vendors and didn't see anything worth buying. We watched some more plays and he was being so sweet, telling us to sit under the shade with the team and their families, we just felt uncomfortable so we sat on MC's blanket that folds into a purse/bag. He bought food and at times I did too, but for the most part he was taking out his wallet out of my purse to pay for things. I <3 him!! So we went back to the motel and took a nap, after the two hour nap we went to Shopko and bought Monopoly deal and learned how to play and it was fun!! Time for bed and we woke up even earlier for the tournament, got ready and went. We watched their game and they won the first one, won the second one, and lost the third one that day. He was disappointed, like I knew he would be, and I was disappointed too, but I didn't want to show it too much and make him feel down.. Although the game was upsetting, we had fun! We left early and went swimming in the motel pool, just me and him. He was so sweet, carrying me on his back in the pool and running around, he made me laugh so much!!! Talking about how if someone told us to get a room, he would reply that we have a room already, LOL! He's such a nerd, in a good way that is. At times he looks like Steve Erkel, lol. He makes me so happy and giddy, I couldn't ask for more. I pushed him in the pool and he scraped his knee in the 3 feet deep side of the pool. I felt super bad, but it was only a little scrape. He was also trying to teach me swim because I can barely swim, he was teaching me how to do the breast-stroke and he was holding me from under. He was holding me too high because my feet was barely in the water when I was pedaling, lol! He tried holding me lower and I was just so off balanced that I fell in, lol! He was laughing and so was I. But it's ok, because when he was on my back, I accidentally tipped him over and he fell way under the pool. After that we went in because we were cold, he showered first and then I. When I went in there were towels all over the floor, I asked him why he used so many towels and he said, "so you wont trip"!!! HOW SWEET right? Anyways after that MC's BF arrived and they went swimming. The BF and I went back to the tournament while it was pouring and grabbed dinner there, we watched the last portion of the finally and it was pretty amazing, he said, "so this is how good teams play?" lol we went back and played monopoly deal and then headed to watch the fire works, we went on the bridge over the lake and it was so gorgeous, there were people standing in the rocks to watch the fireworks and then there were people in their boats. I wished we were on there, it would have been so romantic. We only saw the last 5 minutes of the fireworks, but it was so worth it, we caught it on camera too, I had to scream in excitement! He thinks it's so funny when I do that. So afterwards we go back hang out for a bit and then head off to bed. We wake up to check out and head to the mall, we stroll around and go to Payless for some shoes for work, not finding anything we leave the mall and wait for MC and her BF. We drive to the end of the parking lot and park, with the radio on and the AC blasting, he and I play Monopoly deal. It was fun!! He won several times and then after switching spots, I won a few times, he said that if he wins, he owns me, and if I win, then I own him.. What the hey?? lol I told him, well that's lame, no matter what we're gonna be together.. lol So he wins and he says he owns me, so he can marry me anytime and he can do whatever he wants. LOL ok weirdo. So we headed to the mall to eat and then we went to stroll the streets of the city, finding nothing we decided to go to the Botanical Garden. It was raining off and on and it costs $7 for adults, so we left and went to search for WalMart, for something to do. MC called and asked if we were ready so we went to the mall and decided to roam Downtown for something to do. My sister text me saying they usually went to Bay Beach, so that's where we went until 9pm. The BF and I went on the bumper cars with MC and her BF. First time ever that the BF went on the bumper cars, he said it was ok, but he had fun, I know it! We then went on the ferris wheel, first time I have ever been on it, not as tall as others that I've seen but it was scary, I hate that plunging feeling that it gave me. He caught it on camera, then we went to the swings that swing way up in the air, he also caught that on camera. That gave us all a little headache, I was dizzy for about 20 minutes. We left the amusement park and headed to our vehicles in the mall parking lot. I said bye and he did too, we hugged and kissed and left our own ways.

I miss him so much!! We got home at 11:40 and I went to bed right away, since I had to work today. I miss him so so much, he made me so happy and I realized that I do want to be his wife, no matter what and soon if possible, lol. I don't want to tell him that because he already wants me to. We have a long road ahead of us, I'm just waiting for the details..

Monday, June 28, 2010

Marketing Again

So, I'm standing, sitting, standing, sitting, and standing here at the market. It's crazy, I'm so tired from waking up early all week long, I know I shouldn't be complaining when there are far worse situations, but this is what I'm use to so I complain about things that are big to me, it's nature to do that. Plus I'm hungry and missing the BF. I want to tell him about my dream that I had last night at my sister's new apartment. For some reason I was so tired and my body felt super heavy, it was difficult to move, maybe it's because I was so tired and the lack of sleep that I have been getting. It kind of scared me too, LOL! But I don't know I don't think it's anything abnormal. I would tell you my strange/scary dream but it's not appropriate.

Back to the market, it's cloudy and windy, not hot for those who are wearing jeans and a T, and not cold for those who are wearing shorts and a tank. The clouds are dark, seems like it might rain on us, which I hope will not happen, my feet will be wet and so will my pants. Then I'll feel cold because of the wind. Maybe God will be good to us and not make it rain, although he always is.

My mother's bouquets are so gorgeous, yet no one has even glaced twice at them, the only ones in "awww" are the humans selling anything. They come from the other side and ask my mother where she ordered them and what they're called, she's so sweet she shares it with the world and then the next summer everyone's got them too! That's how it goes down here/up here, lol (depending where you are to me). For now I will put my pen down and hlep my mother...


Ok, now it's super windy..... not good...

(so I wrote all of this on my little notepad in my purse when I was bored at the market, but it didn't rain, the weather was off and on.. hot and windy and then just hot and humid.. so strange, I hope you guys liked this little complaint whatever you call it, lol)

Thursday, June 24, 2010

Watching Him Work

So, I'm super-di-duper excited!!!!! I'll be going out of town July 4th weekend to watch my BF play Flag Football, it'll be so fun and exciting!!! I can't wait to go! I can't wait to see him, it hasn't been that long since the last time I saw him, but since we live like 4-5 hours away, I'm so excited. He's been playing for a couple years now and I've never seen him play before, so I'm super excited to go watch him work and sweat... OooOoOO wEeEEeeEEe!!!! lol I seriously can't wait to be on the sidelines and cheer him on, I know he'll like that, it'll keep him pumpin and grindin.. lmao no it's just gonna keep him motivated because his chick-a-dee is watchin him. Just thinking about it makes me smile!!! I'm sure we'll be going out Saturday night (with some friends that I will be going with and my bf's sisters), so I will be sure to post pictures up for that!!!

Wednesday, June 23, 2010

Not Sure

I'm so indecisive, not about a specific topic but just in general. This morning I woke up thinking that I should look nice today, and then I was thinking it's so hot I don't want to sweat and look nasty. So, I decided I would be wearing something along the lines of casual, but I had such a difficult time trying to decide what to wear. I went from a Capri to jeans, then from a tank top and a cardigan, to a tank top and a flowy shirt. It took me forever, and I just didn't feel like wearing anything, lol. But I had to put something on quick and get something in my stomach before going out the door to work.

Just those little things bother me sometimes, and if I don't pick a nice outfit for the day, throughout the whole day I'm just a little crabby and always so self-conscious. I hate that, but then again in the morning I feel so tired and crappy, that is why I don't dress up all the time. I only feel up to dressing up and looking decent when I'm upbeat and feeling good.

Tuesday, June 22, 2010

YouTube & Twitter

So, EVERYONE is on YouTube and Twitter, or just about everyone. I like the whole concept of both, that's why I have both! I'm loving it, but I don't use twitter too much because I have no one to tweet to nor do I tweet much on there, why? Because I have no one to tweet to, lol. YouTube is another story, I make videos like makeup gurus you see on there. Except I don't get many views, I do have subscribers, which keeps me going, because that means that at least someone is watching. No one really comments, not sure why, maybe they just don't have anything to say, lol. Sometimes I don't post even though I loved the video. I wouldn't say I'm the best at makeup, but I do love it, it's so fun and I love the turnout. Doing makeup on others is fun too, but it's more difficult because their lids are different than mine. Some girls don't like dark makeup, some don't like bright colors, so you would have to accommodate of course. But makeup is a must for me, not everyday, but to have. I always have to find a reason to stroll along that aisle just to browse, and then I find something and I'm all like, I shouldn't but I must, lol. I've gotten better, but I admit I have a makeup obsession, and purses, and shoes, and clothes.. LOL! :D

If you're interested in my twitter and youtube, I'll post them below!!

Monday, June 21, 2010

Talent Elsewhere...

Looking through several blogs I see that mine is pretty much pointless. Why did I create it anyways? lol Seeing that everyone's is because of a talent that they want to share or an event that they want documented to better them and to share with the world. Here I am documenting whatever random things that come to my mind and that I want to blog and share or showoff. Wondering if this is lame or if anyone will even care because there wont be anyone reading it besides me. The BF doesn't know what this stuff is and would never come on to read what I have to say because he doesn't even have internet, so my audience would be the author. How sad and depressing, thinking about my talents, I can't think of any. Sure I do makeup and nails, but I'm nothing compared to others. Sure I like to write, nothing compared to others. Not much to share here, maybe I'll just go take a nap for a long time until I dream of something that I'm talented at and then come back to share it with the world.

Girl's Night Out

So it was this past Saturday night, but I still want to share. It was a blast with a little drama here and there, but none-the-less I had a great time! I went with my two older sisters. We met up with some unexpected people, but it was crazy fun. We also met a neighbor of ours from a long time ago, he looked so different! I love it that you meet people you haven't seen in so long and become great friends again. It's like it was made to be that way, you were made to reconnect, lol. Not sure about him, he didn't even remember me, but that was a long time ago and I was so young, I was like 9-10 and he was like 15. He had the biggest crush on my sister, whom everyone thinks is my twin.

So? Do we look like twins? lol

I had a blast, and am wanting to go back this Saturday but we will see.... It's only once in a long time that I get to get dressed sexy and feel crazy and wild, lol.

Me showing off my outfit in my sister's small kitchen.

Sunday, June 20, 2010

Farmer's Market GOODIES

My mom's goodies and a neighbor's really nice flowers had me obsessing all day, I had fun and I loved the fresh air I was getting. It's always so nice to be around people who engage themselves with fresh veggies and it's so sweet that so many people show up to come buy local grown veggies! I'm super glad that my mom does garden (tons of it) so we get veggies during the Summer. That means we save money because we don't have to go grocery shopping constantly, our garden is our grocery store for the Summer.

I admit, I get lazy at times and don't want to pick veggies, pull weeds, and roast in the hot sun, but I think it's soothing to do garden. You think a lot while you're out there with nature, watching wonderful things grow right in front of you. You think a lot about anything and I tend to drift off into fantasy land, where I don't have to do garden, LOL!!

Our Strawberries....

Sweet Sugar Ann!!!

My mom's lilies...


Not sure what this one's called.

Our neighbor's flowers



So, I did a lot today! So I want to share with the world what I did, but it's so early and I don't have much time to post up pictures and write what has been going throughout the wonderful day, so I'm only updating the world about what is coming your way!! So I went to the Farmer's Market, that was so fun and exciting! Then went out to dinner with my sister and got ready for a girl's night out! Pictures to come, if they aren't too blury!!! We went to the bar with a dance floor and met up with some of my sister's co-workers and friends. It was great meeting them, they were really funny and sweet for buying me a yagger bomber (however you spell it). I had fun dancing though and tomorrow will be great because I get to sleep in for once, and I have an outing with my sister!!! Details to come!

Friday, June 18, 2010


Ok, so I'm not sure about this whole blogging thing, you might call me stupid for this, but I'm thinking it's just something that everyone asks, that's besides the point, but I'm trying to get started and I can't because I don't really know what to do. All I know is that I can type on here and it will post, I don't know how to find other people's blogs, which is something that I want to do.. Even though I don't have internet at home, I would like to see/read blogs when I can. So how will people find me? How can I find others? I'm going crazy browsing in the wrong places for something that usually is so simple on other websites.. Did I come to the wrong blog website?


Oh My Goodness! I'm so excited! So far the day has started good, woke up with a smile on my face, or more like a pout because I had to wake up, but once I got up, I decided it would be a great and wondrous day! Came to work and was surfing the net, found some awesome websites for plus size models and plus size women! If you are interested, here are the links:

And then I started to think about blogging, and I decided that I would love to do it. I like writing, but I don't like writing assignments, lol! I'm sure that goes for everyone!! Righttt?
So I read a little about blogging and decided it would be a good idea, why?

-It would help me become a better typist
-Update me on things that are new
-Meet new people
-Further my spelling skills, speaking skills, and skills in general
-Write more about me and so in the future I can go back and read what has happened in my EXCITING life, (not really (about the exciting part))
-Help my YouTube channel
-Make friends

-Mean people write mean things
-Hurt my feelings
-Stalkers (not that anyone would)
-I don't know how to use it
-I never update it and just stop doing it
-I get too addicted

I don't know, looks like they kind of weigh out the same, so I've decided to do it anyways, it'll be super good to know how to use if I ever work somewhere where they want to use blogger and other websites like this!! YAY for me and my experiences..

I hope that people read this, It's my first blog page/website, and I'm super excited, kinda like I was for my YouTube and still am, but not much there.. Oh wells, something new for me to learn and experience, I'm SO EXCITED!!!