The Nature of ME

The Nature of ME
Me Being at My Best, ME!

Sunday, February 19, 2012

How We've All Changed

I am 22 years old now, soon to be 23 next month.

From the time I was 21 and now there were many differences.

From the time I was 18 and now there were even more differences.

When I was 16, I was still adventuring.

13, when I first became a teenager, I felt so young.

I remember thinking wow, I can never go back to living in the one digits when I turned 10. I felt so strange and yet nothing really happened when I turned 10.

I can't believe how fast everything is going. My childhood is only a memory now. I would love to sit and watch all of my childhood memories in videos and in pictures.

I wish my parents would have developed my high school graduation pictures so I could have that on hand. They are so forgetful.

It makes me so sad that I am growing old and getting wrinkles. What have I done?

I am someone who used to be so happy, I still am, but for some stupid reason I like to down myself in sorrow. I say I like to, because I do it so often, so I must like to do it right?

Wishing I was young again, wishing I didn't have responsibilities. Wishing I didn't need anyone else to rely on or that no one needed to rely on me.

Who am I God? I have changed in so many ways, I would like to say that it's for the better, but I really don't know. Have I made a difference in someone's life?

Who are the people around me. I've heard before that your friends are a mirror image of you. Is that true?

I can't believe how much I've changed and yet I think I haven't changed at all.

Monday, February 13, 2012

What If?

Okay I'm going to be a little on the down side right now just because I can. I know it's a day away from Valentine's Day and no one needs to be reading about depressing stuff. But I just had a thought and it makes me very sad.

What if someone like me who blogs wrote a suicide note on their blog and no one saw it? I know no one reads my blog posts besides me, so what if it were the same for this suicidal person?

I'm not saying it's me, I love my life and all, I was just thinking this because I don't get any readers. Sure I have followers but I doubt they read anything. Reading is boring!

It is very sad, I am guilty of it myself. I hope that if this ever were to happen someone takes it seriously and tries to help and succeeds. We need to be more aware of everyone's thoughts and feelings. We need to be appreciative of others.

Valentine's Day is coming tomorrow and I know a handful of people who are loved but may feel alone on this day. Some may say it's stupid to be giving on this day and not on any other day, but every day is the same to a lot of people. Jazz it up a bit! Make some love and give a little. Show some kind of appreciation.

I have someone and yet I feel alone. I admit it, I don't care. Just because you are with someone doesn't mean that other person or you, will receive or give anything. Sad isn't it? Doesn't it feel wasted?

All those people who are single don't get anything and they feel sad because they have no one, well reality check. Even if you have someone you may or may not get anything anyways. People are so materialistic. Shoot, I am! I love my makeup, jewelry, and clothes! I want things too! If I wine and cry will I get it? Maybe, but not for the same reason that I wanted them for, so that defeats the whole purpose.

Am I mapping out an equation or something?

I'm just telling how it is. One thing leads to another. The bf will never read this so don't worry. Don't get me wrong, he's not a bad person, he's just not a very giving person.

Thursday, February 2, 2012


I have been attending a positive training session and I love it! Sometimes I admit that happy people are annoying, you think, WHY ARE YOU SO HAPPY YOU FREAK, or you think they're annoying and want them to shut up. BUT, everyday there is sadness and we need more happy people in our lives and in the world.

SO I have decided that I'm going to change myself a little to improve, for the better and be POSITIVE. I'm only going to think positive thoughts, be happy, and annoying (if that's what you think happy people are).

It was a goal for my channel for me to be more enthusiastic in my videos and I feel like that's how it should be in life too. I have to be more enthusiastic and live more, take more chances and opportunities, I have to be more happy and laughing and crazy wild (in an appropriate way).

Positivity can change you! Surround yourself with positivity and positive people. I heard someone say get rid of all the negative people. And to me, that is harsh, but I understand, but I don't know if I could do that. I'm a pretty friendly and caring person, so I can't do just that, but I get what they mean.

Negative people drag you down with them and you don't want to feel that way. They ruin your day and make you mopey. Who wants to be mopey other than E-or? Is that even how you spell his name?

Anyways, I hope you become positive too, I'm not forcing you, I'm simply asking and hoping you will bring the enthusiasm in your life!

Scream a little, or a lot!!! Laugh loud and proud. Be you but with more emphasis!