The Nature of ME

The Nature of ME
Me Being at My Best, ME!

Saturday, April 30, 2011

My Kiwi Family

For Spring break I had the best time EVER in Auckland!!!!!!

Went to visit a friend I met on YouTube! She is so sweet, check her channel out!

It was a great experience, from someone who knew the city, it was really nice to visit the places I did and see the things I did. It was such a great experience, I had so much fun and made such good friends! Can't wait to see them again, whenever that is!

They were like my family, it was so nice to stay at their place, and they fed me so well too! Everyone was so loving, the cats even! lol

Sonya's family was so sweet and so was she! The most nice and loving person in NZ! I felt at home and at ease in Auckland, not sure why I don't like Dunedin as much, but I'm so glad I went to Auckland! Loving the city life more than ever!!

I truly felt like I was in the states, just a different city! lol

I'll post some pictures of our fun!!! It was AMAZING!

Sky City

The Best Kebab EVER (first and only one I've had)

The gorgeous beach we went to

Tuesday, April 19, 2011

Have You Ever

Have you ever felt like you're a burden to someone? Even though whomever it is you're with says you're not and they are trying super hard to be nice, you can just feel it and you just know that they are annoyed and bothered by you. Not your existence, but you being there and taking up their time.

I have been feeling kind of like that lately, to the girls that I have become friends with. Some times you can never be friends with girls because they are so judgmental and they expect so much from you. Or is it that I expect a lot from them? Not really sure, but one thing I do know is that I'm not always wanted.

And that is ok with me because I have been the one who has felt like this certain person is taking up my time too. When you're in that situation, you try super hard for them to not notice that you are in a rush or are annoyed, but you fail and you just apologize out of pure kindness and the good of your heart but they still think you're trying hard.

Ok, so I've been in both situations, when you are that someone who is in their way, you know it and what you do is leave. How long do you leave them alone for? Until they come back and ask for you to hang out or never again?

That's why girls can be such difficult friends, you don't know how they are, they could be talking to you about someone and then the next thing they could be talking about you to someone.

Have you ever felt like the world is crashing on you? Like nothing worse could happen because it already has happened. Like you're hopeless?

This is not to depress anyone, or that I am sad or depressed, I just want to know.

When my professor said he wasn't going to mark my essay because it didn't work when I sent it, my world fell apart and I was so worried about my grade and how the rest of the semester was going to be. I felt so lost because I wasn't understanding what's going on in the course, and knew then that I chose courses that were not fit for me, I was not ready. Then my bf and I were having problems, and then we broke up and I had no one, no one to tell, no one to talk to. Not only that, I'm so far from home, what to do right? The world was crashing down, literally, there were disasters everywhere, all over the news, and I prayed to God for him to keep the world spinning and for everyone to be safe.

I was worried for my life, I was worried that I would fall asleep and not wake up. I was scared that there would be nothing left of me and my family would have never known how I actually died, or when I died. I was so scared I was going to die alone, all by myself, with no loved ones around.

After calming myself down I figured that time will heal things up, make things better. And here I am, feeling happy that break is in a few days, that my bf and I are back together, and that God is keeping Earth safe.

Wednesday, April 13, 2011

One of the MOST EXCITING NEWS Since I've Been Here

So, I was thinking just the other day to look for youtube gurus in NZ, and up until yesterday I couldn't find any because I kept googling, but I figured I should just put it in youtube!!!! AND I FOUND SOME!!!

I am so excited, I can't sleep! LOL

I have a 6-8 page paper due Tuesday and I've only started, plus this weekend I have great fun plans and tomorrow I have a long day at the Uni, so I'm pretty booked except Friday and Sunday and Monday, and I just can't fall asleep because I'm so HAPPY!

Call me a kid, but I don't care!!

Meeting new women with the same passion as me, so EXCITING. And the best part is, they aren't shady.

I like it when you write to someone and they are just as excited to write back as you were when you wrote to them. I hate it when I get replies that are just like, oh yea, blah blah blah... And then it kills your excitement and the whole point that you were writing them.

Anyways, I would love to do a meet up with these gurus, if they are willing and if we are around the same areas, which I hope we are, if not we'll have to find a way to meet up! Cannot wait!!!!!!!

Wish me luck on my new adventure of making friends with youtube gurus in NZ!!! I can't wait to go shopping for things they love, getting and giving tips on cosmetics, doing swaps! Just being friends, YAY! lol

Monday, April 11, 2011

From Being a Friend, To Being a Best Friend, To Being Another Good Friend

Things change and so do people.

I'm just glad it all worked out.

He was my friend, then he became my lover and best friend, and now I guess it's just time to be friends again.

It's so weird how it all works, but if this is what God has led us to, we will agree to it.

I have no idea how it will be once I get back home, but for now I don't want to ruin anything. I'd rather have him in my life than not.

If God leads us to be together again, I would be gladly to accept, but for now I think this is good for the both of us. It gives us time to grow up and determine what we want in life for ourselves instead of for the both of us.

Tuesday, April 5, 2011

The Power Of Red Lips

I have this great idea!!!!!! I'm so frick'n excited about it too!!

So I have a lot of sisters, and I want to get them something from NZ, so last night I was thinking about something that isn't so expensive and they would like. Something that is meaningful, so that when they look at it they know that it's from me and smile! I don't know what to get them, and every women likes makeup! So I have decided to get my sisters red lipsticks! I will have to buy them all the same lipstick from a NZ brand so that it'll be somewhat special.

Not only is it just a red lipstick, there is a great reason behind it. When you wear red lipstick you have to be confident, you have to be bold, and my sisters are so confident and bold, they may not think they are, but they are!!! This lipstick will bring confidence, I want them to wear it when they feel confident and I want them to wear it when they don't feel confident to knock that low self-esteem off!!! When you're having a sad day, put it on and brighten up the mood! People will compliment you and that will make things better, when you look good, you feel good, vice versa!

This has great meaning and I hope they follow it! And if you would like, do that to your friends and sisters, it's a great reason to wear red lipstick! The power of red lips is so powerful, you turn heads and stick out from the crowd! It makes you feel good, something that you don't feel when you don't have it on!

Now I just have to go find a NZ brand that is affordable so I can buy several, and it has to be a bold red too!!! I'll have fun doing that, that's for sure!!!