It's horrible that I feel alone. It's worse because the bf and I don't seem to be getting along lately. It's so weird, I'm not sure why at all, it kills me inside. I'm sitting here in New Zealand at the University library and I feel like wailing, I want to cry so bad it sucks that I'm stuck here so far from my flat. I want to run there and cry in my bed, but what good will that do? Then after I cry what will I do? Who will I talk to? Why did I come here?
I miss home, my bed, my friends. I miss having all the comfort level that I don't have now. I miss knowing where everything is, and miss knowing that there will be people around me at all times. There's no one here because school doesn't start for another month. What did I get myself into?
Do you think that in a month I will feel stupid for writing this? I hope so because I hope that I will meet people soon and that I won't feel so alone. Please tell me there is someone out there that would be more than willing to talk to me and help me, everyone else says they are willing but doesn't look it, or it's their job and they really don't want to.
What am I to do reader? What am I to do?