Sometimes you feel so alone when there's so many people around you. You find that you're the only one standing still and thinking about what's going on and seeing everyone moving and going about their own lives with so much excitement and happiness. You think to yourself, why can't I be that girl smiling and laughing, holding onto her best friends arm and wondering if they will meet any new friends today; or why can't I be that other girl smiling and laughing at her parents being so silly? You realize that you have caught yourself at a bad moment, a bad time to be in a bad mood, and you have no idea how to get rid of this emotion of sadness and loneliness.
You try to walk around and smile to others, but surely they can too sense that there is something wrong, they can see it in your eyes, the way your cheeks just droop down without a smiling crease.
Walking along all these happy memories, people don't even realize that you feel so alone, that you too would like to be just as happy as they are.
Sometimes you are the person that is the happy one and don't realize there is a sad person there along with you, or in the same room as you.
Taking a photo with a crowd in the back you don't realize that there are tears on her eyes, just a few people back. You catch that moment but you don't realize it.
Sometimes people take a photo with you in the background and find you in the photo later, and wonder to themselves, what were you thinking about at that very moment? What made you so sad? It could have been anything, sometimes you just catch people at the wrong times with the wrong mood, and sometimes you find yourself catching yourself in the wrong mood at the wrong time.
What is the solution?
If I knew, I wouldn't be writing this.