Another Update

So I've been posting a lot of videos onto YouTube, if you're interested check it OUT!!!

http://www.youtube.com/user/janika3689

Quick Update

Sorry, been out of it and been really busy, plus no internet, so I haven't been posting much, not that anyone cares or is reading.. lol, but thought I would do an update anyways.. love ya!

The Weekend

It has gotten better, not everything has been figured out but for the most part the BF is willing to adjust which is a good thing, that's always a good thing, so I'm super excited and can't wait for those things to be adjusted... There are so many things to be thankful for, so I went shopping and bought the BF a couple shirts from my favorite store, Old Navy (ON)!!! He asked me what I got him and I told him they're really comfy shirts, so he's excited because he likes the soft fabric. From ON I also got some myself a cardigan that's brown because I need more colors in my wardrobe, and then I got clothes for my niece and nephew. I also got a bunch of jewelry from Wet Seal!!! So I have a haul on my jewelry filmed, it will be on YouTube once I edit it, so if you're interested you can go to my channel and check that out!!

"Don't Settle"

"Don't Settle" says the ladies at the office.

Don't settle for less, and I shouldn't. I'm worth a lot more, so is everyone, so I'm not going to settle for anything less because every human being deserves more, this is my life and I am NOT going to settle, because in the future settling is not enough.

Romance

I find that through watching movies I feel so emotional. The feelings that movies and TV shows would make me feel, make me want to love and have fun. Yet I'm too lazy to call people to hang out and catch up. All my life I have been imagining and fantasizing about love and relationships and romance. Yet I tell myself that I don't care about romance, and I'm not much for it, but watching movies I find that I am a romanticism. I do want flowers and I do want him to light candles for me. I kept telling people that I don't care about flowers, but seeing others get it from their loved one, I feel a bit jealous. I want to know that he's thinking about me and buys me flowers.

Once the BF picked flowers for me, it was sweet, so sweet..

My sister and her husband go on dates, and their married. Now that is sweet, who plans it? Her husband does, that's even more romantic. I want to feel the butterflies fly in my tummy, I want to be nervous about what will happen and spill the juicy details to girls who will be jealous. I want to feel so in love again. Now I feel loved, but not in love, there is a difference. A big difference. Being in love is fun and exciting, feeling the love is knowing that the other person cares, but there's not much excitement, there's just certainty.

I would be so happy if the BF would do something out of the ordinary and plan a get-a-way weekend. I would be so excited and delighted. Will it happen? Never, he's not like that, nor would he ever think of something like this. He's an awesome man, don't get me wrong, but he's those men who doesn't know what to get a girl for her birthday or doesn't plan ahead. He buys things for you if you say you want it, but doesn't buy you anything if you don't say anything. I guess that's a good thing, I don't need any more pampering when I pamper myself too much.......